expansive lessons

post solar eclipse reflections

there will be disappointment…

there will be moments where you question it all -

every sip in and every pour out

there will be opinions and perspectives

that center into personal and bypass the potential

of all that is possible from the Highest view

there will be doubt

and denial

and disgust, distrust

and defeat

rest in what is true

not the externals

not the edges

not the expectations

rest in the center of you

it may not be what it was

it may not be what is wanted

it may not be what has been hoped for

it will be all it needs to be when it is needed to be it

may what disappoints now

have the ability to direct us into

Our Divine Destiny

allow it all to crumble

allow them to misinterpret,

not interrupt - your call and creations

rise and continue on and through

we need you and all your lessons

wow-wee,

I don’t know about y’all,

but I am absolutely still digesting the majestic experience Monday of witnessing a total solar eclipse, right from the privilege and blessing of my brother’s front yard, I have yet to really digest the shear awe and amazement experienced as well as the energy of union and excitement of sharing in on a moment of looking up at something so extraordinary - something there to maybe just maybe remind us of our shared sky as well as ground.

there’s so much that is still stirring from those 2 minutes of totality shadowed and shining upon me and my closest people, my heart, my humans, my most solid ground. truly a blessing. and the gifts are continuing…

eclipses have a way of bringing the deep buried treasures of stories and selves to the forefront, like in that time of the moon casting away the light of the sun, there’s this space of time where shadows exist right there within the light - it’s a cosmic experience as well as a conscious one (regardless of where you landed in proximity of it’s totality) - giving us the gift of reflecting that which both shines as well as that which both shadows - the illumination of light and that which covers it up.

in the space of 48 hours the Universe has gifted me with many lessons that I feel have been buried for quite some time - the roots of patterns and perspectives of my own self and the ways I cast shadows and light into the world, and ways the world and all it’s inhabitants reflect that same contrast and conditioning back at me.

i’m literally in awe as I think of all the growth that is being presented to me and just hope to do it good and just. which will take space and time.

i’m still digesting… i’m still taking a good look around and wondering what can be learned from these offerings of seeing in a new light and darkness - both of myself and all I am apart of and around?

all of it feels expansive. yet, right now I feel very much in the contraction, the confusion, the clarity still not quite found of why do I do what I do? why do we do what we do? when we know what we know? when we have lived through many lessons and many experiences that can be painful and pleasant? perplexing and profound?

Discomfort is not dangerous. and shadows do not have to be scary. they can be playful. they can be creative. that can be a direction towards all that is awaiting to be healed, held, and found.

I’m grateful for the opportunity to grow, to be triggered and still trying - in all my totality. And I think this is a moment where we could begin to recognize the totality of each other.

the totality of me, recognizing the totality of you.

and hoping to use it, as best as I can, hoping to use it in a way that doesn’t perpetuate hurt and harm yet remedies and relieves it… the same light and shadows of my own totality just teach me that each of us is learning how to balance and breathe as we learn what it means to hold the light and the dark, to be the human as well as the soul, to take care of the me as well as the we - so much balancing work to be done and all in our own ways, darkness, and light.

so, I am curious dear friend and reader, if the eclipse has offered you any opportunities to grow? to heal? to see? to shift?

how can we keep looking up together as we also do the work of staying rooted, rested, and radiating our light out into the world from within?

i’m with you in the work as well as all the questions… and with time, ill share a little more of what it is I have been experiencing… for now, I just know it’s a teacher, and I am here open and humbled to learn.

ps, my brother in law, Ryan Soulard, captured this picture of the solar eclipse Monday, April 8th. we are apart of something so extraordinary. maybe this is the Universe’s way of showing us the light still burns bright and brilliant, no matter what blocks it, no matter what buries it, no matter what may be happening, the eternal shines, and we can too, we must too.