may we be well, may we be rested
messages from my dream state
yesterday, as a I awoke to the new month and newness of a new day, I first was held by multiple messages that found me in my slumber…
this first very vivid vision I remember having as I slept in the portal of my dreams and subconscious was seeing the 4 paws of a lioness… I could not see her full body, yet I could feel her presence and was experiencing a hypnotic state as I witnessed her slowly, yet surely, taking up space and taking her time as she moved forward with grace and so much power. As she slowly placed her paws in front of the other I could see all that was in the path around her begin to disperse, dissipate, even disappear. she created a clearing. and was showing me that without any aggression, without any fear, without any sort of bravado of the ego, she was making her move with such precision, purr-pose (see what I did there), and ease as she pursued whatever was calling her forward. It just felt pure and powerful and continues to provide me great courage as I rest in the memory of that dream, messenger, and vision…
I then woke up to see the clock at 3:33… and I giggled as I shifted positions and found my way back into the portal of sleep and dreams.
this time, I was with my mom. she was driving me and I was with her in the front seat, a true dream of mine outside of sleep, something I yearn for, something I even “pretend” at times is real, her there with me in the car and we are just chatting and driving and catching up, just as we used to do… almost 11 years have passed where I haven’t been able to be in that passenger seat position with her, yet, there I was, feeling so safe, feeling so secure, riding along with my mama, with no awareness or need to know where we were going - it just felt so good and real to be there - together - with her. I remember saying to her in the dream that I have no idea what I am doing, yet I do know there is something calling me in and calling me towards a destiny I can’t quite yet clearly see or name, yet I know it is very much within my reach. She held space for me. My original teacher of how to do such an intentional act of love and care - listening, witnessing, and allowing it all to pour. She heard me. And even reassured me. I am in route and she will be right there with me - always… and then as quickly as it came it also began to go… and she and our car ride together faded away… yet the memory lives on in my awareness. I am thankful for the ability to remember that ride and to reconnect with the truth, she is always there…
and from my time with her, I was gifted one more gem. most mornings, I wake up without an alarm, I know I know I know, I am very blessed to have the ability to rise without an alarm, yet, this morning I did need an alarm to wake me as Mani and I had an appointment we needed to be at by 9. I just name this as it was really interesting that as the chimes of my alarm began to alert me to awake, there in my dream and right at that edge of awakeness, awareness, and sleep, I heard, saw, and even felt myself say,
“if they don’t want you rested, they don’t want you well”
“if they don’t want me rested, they don’t want me well”
“if they don’t want us rested, they don’t want us well.”
clear and concise and right as i awoke to greet the new morning, month, and day…
every which way i could reside and receive this message it was felt, it was seen, it was heard, it was found, and it is so very remembered…
“if they don’t want you rested Keri, they don’t want you well”
and,
“Keri, if you don’t want them rested, you don’t want them well”
I know sometimes even with the awareness I have around the importance of rest and how it is not a self indulgent act, it actually is a necessity, a need, and impacts us all and our health and well being on every single level, that I can judge myself for rest or compromise my own vitality by neglecting a nap or forcing myself awake before I feel rested or need to rise and shine - I also am aware of how often when I have voiced I needed a break or watched as someone close to me in need of a break and rest too that its met with resistance, misunderstanding, and even can create conflict and tension within organizations, relationships, and environments. We need to look into that. We need to look into ourselves. And we need to see each other. Societally and systemically right now, there really is no prioritization or space for rest, profitization continues to triumph over how tired we are, traumatized we are, and all of which just amplifies the very tender truth: we are not well ya’ll, we are not well.
but, damn, we could be…
i can feel the ways in which all these messages and messengers are still guiding me.
from the vision of the lioness walking and how everything in her path cleared - powerful, slow, steady…. paw by paw and literally waking up at 3:33 just to return to the realization that i am with my mom and she has me, hears me, and is with me in the traveling to and towards Divine destiny, and how without rest there is no fuel, without rest there is no way we or i can be well, and i must be well, we must be well, if we really want to live into Divine Destiny, if we really want to live into a world where our dreams can prelude destiny, we must be allowing of the spaciousness to rest, not singular to our selves, yet for all we are in company and community with.
these messages stir up curiosity in me and have me wondering if we can actually prioritize more space and support to allow ourselves and each other to rest. notice where we gait keep. notice where we negate. notice where we may be resisting they very thing our mind, body, and spirits are hungry and hopeful for, rest & wellness.
my one night of sleep transported me into a new reality of who I am today. I feel more courageous in this pursuit of destiny, especially knowing I have the lioness leading the way and clearing out the obstacles, clutter, and blocks that keep me from my pace. I feel more at ease knowing my mom is with me in the travels and trajectory and that it’s beautiful to not know what one is doing, because even in all that I do not know, I do know I am showing up with an open heart and generating love. that’s all it really is and needs to be. And how that message was so clear for me in my transitionary period of sleep state to wake, and the very real validation of this is needed so you can be well, without rest, we cannot be well.
so, if all of that nectar found its way to me, I wonder what will make it’s way to you if you simply allow the space. I write that and I know it is not always simple to prioritize the things we actually need to be well. my hope is we really hear and reflect again and again on that message:
if they don’t want me rested, they don’t want me well -
and how maybe that can be a compass for us all as we make choices and boundaries and patterns in the here and now that will ultimately impact all that’s here and all that is long after.
so, I am curious, how have your dreams been speaking to you?
be it in the spaciousness of being awake as well as the slumber of being asleep?
in what ways are your very dreams guiding you?
may we pay attention.
may we prioritize rest.
may we know we are apart of something so loving, so kind, so just that wants us well and free.
may we share the spaciousness as well as the support.
may we encourage rest and all it’s varying dynamics and degrees.
may we know we are worthy of being well, and so is everyone and everything.
