our Holy/holey light
may it guide us free
the light in me,
as well as all of the madness and miracles in me that has led me to that light within,
sees, feels, and honors that in you…
i tend not to use the word, “namaste” in my offerings, yet, i still live into the practice of recognizing that which is within me is also that within you as well as that which is happening out in the world is also happening within the very room where we get to ground, meet, and gather together. there is no separation. all is connected. all is apart of. all is me. and all is you.
yet, too often i witness and even at times unconsciously default to, an idea that we can keep something at the door, leave a part of us outside of ourselves, and not call in all the parts and pieces, holes and holiness, hurt and healing, grief and love, hatred and understanding, that make us who we are. It’s a learned behavior that is normalized in many ways this performance of separation, living into an idea that our humanness, ugliness, hurtfulness, the wounded parts of us aren’t able to to be in the room with our light, too. Yet, what is light without darkness? and what is darkness without light? Can you imagine a day where one or the other was non-existent? can you imagine a week like that? a month like that? or even a year? an entire lifetime?
yet, here we are creating environments within ourselves and out in the world for each other, where it feels as though the wholeness of our lives, individually and collectively, aren’t allowed to breathe yet live and be there with us, too.
yet, isn’t that division?
isn’t that the very thing this practice of wholeness and union wants us to see?
the whole of you,
the holes of you,
and the whole of me,
the holes of me?
I’ve been holding this close to my heart and thoughts lately, especially as we just moved through Holy week and all the different stories, denominations, doctrines, and many truths, all sharing their own unique offering and tale that feels so similar and same, ain’t it all about the return to light? ain’t it all about resurrecting beyond the deaths of our spirits and struggles and remembering we can begin again and again?
what if, all these stories,
all this suffering,
all the separation,
and all this faith,
are all here for us in hopes of returning us to the very essence that yokes and unifies from within,
our Holiness,
our holey-ness,
our wholeness,
our sames.
what if these stories and this season isn’t singular to the belief of resurrection to god’s chosen son, yet to all of us as Holy-children of this universe, planet, and now?
and here, in the realness of living in this time and life that is mine, yours, and ours, is the very opportunity to awaken to that Universal truth:
we are all here to rise beyond the tombs, trauma, tyranny, and suffering of our lives, and return - r e s u r r e c t - ourselves forward to the light of love and liberation.
I find it interesting that we are in a moment of time where it is all about the return of light and how these times are all so holey… all too horrendous, hurtful, hard… and maybe, it is in those spaces of our own and unified sufferings, that we can finally feel and find our way to remedy, relief and the realization that all that hurts in me, hurts in you, and all that hurts in you hurts in me, too.
May we awaken to all the ways we intentionally and unintentionally forget as well as remember that we have actual skin as well as spiritual capital in this experience of life to choose again, to finally free and see the soul, the source, the eternal light of our shared Sacredness and multitude of truths, regardless of any hole, regardless of any human identity, regardless of any affiliations to faith and beliefs, we each are accountable to each other, we each are here to reflect as well as rise beyond the ashes, shadows, and blames that continue and catalyze us as separate from our Holiness and humanness.
what if that is why we are here and now? you and me?
to recognize the hurting and use the holes of our own humanity and humanness in hopes of actually freeing and seeing the light for all we are and all we hold within.
i feel this is exactly what our human experience is about. mastering the human lessons through recognizing that each and every hole and hurt offers us a portal closer and clearer to our light, our essence, our very Divinity and Consciousness, and creating the conditions where none, not you, not me, not any, have to experience that disaster, danger, and devastation, ever again.
what if we are here to heal it all? what if we are here to hold it all?
I guess I’m just curious what could be for us all if we were to use the holes as openings, pathways, portals, the very practice of allowing that which has broken us so widely open to be the very calling in, closer and clearer to, all the light within, all the sanctuary found in me, and found in you. what if more of us were willing to do the deep sea dive of our own depths, demons, and darkness to return and unite with the truest reflections of ourselves and all the resources and richness that courageous choice brings… to know who i am, to know who you are, because there it is, so deeply woven inside of me, and without that blow to my heart, the punches to my gut, and the very shattering of structures i thought were holding me, without the holes that have brought me so weakly to my knees and reactive to my heart, i just don’t know if i would have had a way so intimately in… to me as well as you…
and in no way do i want to justify the suffering of myself or any of us in this collective experience of people having a very holey-and-human experience on planet Earth… I do not want to bypass what we endure or condone the conflicts that are happening… I can only hope to shine light and leverage our love and responsibility to ourselves and each other to actually choose to change things (in and out) all for the better.
to be able to hold it all
the holey and the Holy
and allow it to take up all the room
i feel that is why we may just have signed up for this experience of suffering, as you may find it to be true that your Spirit and mine knew there was great work and love to do, great remembering to be had, great light to be found and freed, from the most un-holiest of actions, the hate we freely allow and give, the violence we allow and see, the intentional and unintentional participation and patterns that make the holes in hopes that we finally and fully see,
the light in you
the light in me
and how this Holy light may just be what sets us free.
questions:
how will you hold your holed and Holy today?
how will you welcome the wholeness of you in? as you are? and extend the invitation to all you have the blessing and privilege to intersect with?
I will be loving my wounds as I live into my wonder.
I will be gentle with my grief and empowering with my light.
I will remember it’s all here to guide and grace me home,
home to our hearts and home to our shared humanity.